I have an exam in less than 6 hours, I'm still not through all of the lectures. And I'm wondering if my boyfriend is a total twat or is just out to upset me (I'm going for BOTH!). We were discussing somethings about the time we were apart and he come out with "I had a small group of friends (okay, im not annoyed, this doesn't annoy me at all but then...) out of all of them I was the ladies man." (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anger is off the scale, nails are ready to dig into some skin, screaming is immenent.) HOW DARE HE! Almost 5 years and he comes out with THAT???? What kind of bastard says that in front of his girlfriend? Seriously!!!! Now i'm twice as upset a) coz i know im damn well going to fail my exam and b)SAMUEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Cries*

He has all these really hot girl-friends in Wales, and yes i know he's travelled all the way up from Wales, leaving his family for me, but can you blame me for being upset? I mean I'm nothing looks wise to them, how does he expect me to be happy when he says things like that?

Then he goes on to talk to a girl, straight after he made his bastard comment, leaving me upset then decideds he's going to sleep. *Urge to delete everyone of his friends on facebook and Bebo suddenly rising*

I'm beginning to think all the time I missed, pining away, waiting for a text, crying my heart out, being miserable at BOTH my proms, THE WHOLE PAST FIVE FUCKING YEARS OF MY LIFE, has been a waste of my time!


Mood: Furious, hostile,disbelief, beyond fucked off, weepy, on the war path (with a pillow) enraged, unwanted, SO FUCKING PISSED OFF (all rolled into one tiny little bundle of doomedness.)